I love you inside...

You make me laugh.
You give me joy.
You're an amazing listener.
Your love gives me pleasure.
You make everything brighter.
You make my heart pump fast.

But when that love ends,
You make my life miserable.
You make my friends turn against me.
You make my heart turn against itself.
You make me beg like a little poodle.
You make me so angry, so resentful.
You make me sick.
You make me feel childish and lonely.
You make my heart pump fast, with anger.

I was guilty of starting this stupid fight, for this stupid reason! If I had only known...
But I apologized, because I know I was stupid, but you just don't seem to care about it.
Are you too hurt, or is there something deeper inside you that doesn't want contact with me?

You disappoint me so often, and you make me sick.
But somehow I always want to reconcile, because after all I probably truly need you.
And what hurts most, is the fact that even though our relationship is (or was) mutual, you don't seem to miss me at all.

I know I should be grateful for only having this kind of trouble on my mind,
but still it's no excuse.
I sometimes just wish life was easier to handle. More simple.