Halloween Night

It was Halloween Night.

The JinLove said wanna go Fry and celebrate as Miii wanna see her cute butch who works as bartender at there. -.-

And, Terrence is back!!!

So, all of us went for Tarot reading, as usual, hahaha....

We ordered 2 bottles of Moscato and started to chill.

Miii felt weird to sit in between of me and her, and she asked if she needs to change with me?

I just said no need cause I don't wanna make her feel like I'm kinda obsess over her.

And this could probably be the best seating arrangement for her to have her "space" even though we already break up.

May be all of our friends already get used to it that we are like "conjoined twins" which will never get separated.

  Hmm.... I miss that! :(

Friends get shocked when they saw our relationship's status.  :'(

That's the biggest fear of mine. I checked Facebook everyday ever since we break up just to make sure that you didn't change the status. I don't why I'm so paranoid about it? 

May be I just can't bear to lose you....

Love you from a distance is all I can do.

But to act like a friend in front of  everyone really kills me silently.

Every time I saw you or pictures of you, my heart beats faster and faster and faster like I just did 100 times of pumping.

I'm not sure whether it's heartache or what... I don't know what it is anymore. 

The way you distant yourself from me breaks my heart.

I can hear it's crying inside me, very loud...

You have you own reasons to make up your mind, and I know you do feel the pain like I do.

For the time being, I will still be there for you.

I can't promise you that I could solve your problem, but I won't let you face it alone. You can call me and I will make you laugh like you just popped thousand happy pills; you don't need to cry in front of me, but I will lend you my shoulder and give you the warmest hug. 

I would do anything just to see you smile, anything. Because, you have the most beautiful smile in the world. :)

Note to myself: Love myself more before I know how to love others. :)

Keep it up, Mos!
The truest test of love is if you're willing to keep fighting for it.







P/S: Love you always, love you still, always have, always will. 
I have to make myself happy, then only I will have the strength to make you more happier.