Now I'm lying on the cold hard ground

"I guess I just lost my balance

I think that... the worst part of it all wasn't losing her, it was losing me."

"I heard you moved on, from the whispers on the street."

"I don't know if you know who you are, until you lose who you are."

Ohh~~ I think I've fell for Taylor Swift! hahahaha.. OMG!!

How can I not like her songs when her songs are so RELATED to me!! hahaha.

And guess what? I love the way she dressed in the MTV of "I knew you were trouble"

May be someone dressed like that before too? hahaha...

SO COOOOL~~

By the way, I wasn't saying you were trouble, ok? (you know who you are) THANKS.

And thanks to Janice.'Cause of her (don't know good or bad influence) I started to like RED, 

by Taylor Swift too.  :P

"Loving her is like driving a new Maserati down a dead end street

Faster than the wind

Passionate as sin, ended so suddenly."

"Losing her was blue like I'd never known

Missing her was dark grey all alone

Forgetting her was like trying to know somebody you've never met

But loving her was red

Loving her was red."

"Remembering her comes in flashbacks and echoes

Tell myself it's time now, gotta let go

But moving on from her is impossible

When I still see it all in my head."

p/s: it was "him" instead of "her". I changed to "her" cause mine was "her".

Ahhhhh~~ HOW HOW HOW??! 

Gonna grab her NEW ALBUM, man!! 

Ok, I'm not a fan of Taylor Swift. But who cares??! Her songs totally fit my situations!! 

And her voiceeee~~ Hell yeah!! 

Now, tell me do I look like Taiwanese? HAHAHA.. 

Those specs just fit my face PERFECTLY!

Don't you agree? Hehe~ :)

P/S: We haven't been talking for 7 days. 

目标

我会努力赚钱

努力工作

我将带着你站在世界的顶端

去过真正的贵族生活!

我一定要做到!!!!

加油!

陈曼芝

你可以的

加油 努力

这点小伤算什么

什么大风大浪没有遇过

要勇敢的抬起头 挺胸向前走

只要是你想要做到的事情 没有什么人事物阻挡得了你

伤口可以愈合的 需要的 只是时间

珍惜现在所拥有的

不要抱怨 要感恩

陈曼芝

你可以的

你真的可以的!

我认输........

我不敢哭 因为我不想认输

我不敢哭 或许也是种认输

爱你却说不出

就当作祝福

12-12-12, 好日子??

人家都说121212会是个好日子 因为一生人就只有那么一次的重叠数字

听说在12-12-12 中午12.12 有许多新人结为夫妻 共谐连理

愿有情人 终成眷属

我? 哈哈哈...

在12-12-12 临晨12.12 发了封短信给她 .....

好傻 好傻 对她来说那就只不过是个数字 毫无意义可言

这天对我来说并非像人们说的那么好
我们 又吵架了
这一次我被气到什么话都骂了
而你仿佛是用你的文字狠狠的给我盖巴掌一样

脏话 狠话 气话

凡是难听的无一不说就对了

心很酸.... 真的不知道我到底做错了什么让我们之间的关系变得那么僵

我纯粹希望我们还可以像以前一样 有说有笑的

但你就是要在我们之间建起了围墙

回不去从前 到不了以后 我们在做什么

芸 够了 真的够了

心被伤得没有空间呼吸了

不要再来打击它 在伤口上撒盐了好不好

不爱就不爱了 不要再让我受伤害

至少让我保留我仅有的自尊 好吗?

从此 你走你的阳关道 我过我的独木桥

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12-12-12 不像传说中那么好 所以决定了去买醉

喝了整jug的 bourbon coke 我依然清醒

我的妈呀~

真的是浪费我的钱,啊~~~~!!!!

恐怖的人群,哈哈哈

告诉自己要尽情享受 尽情跳舞

脑海就是不听使唤的让一些不该出现的画面浮现

答应自己不可再想你 不可以让自己再为这段结束的恋情掉眼泪

答应自己心情再怎么槽都好 也要咬紧牙关

好好的过!

等了你六个月 依然等不到你回头

但是我告诉自己 我不后悔 

至少我等过 没有遗憾 对得起自己 :)

如果"芸"知道

爱一旦结冰 一切都好平静

泪水它一旦流尽  只剩决心

放逐自己在黑夜的边境 

任由黎明一步一步向我逼近

想你的心化成灰烬 

真的有点累了 没什么力气

有太多太多的回忆 哽住呼吸

爱你的心我无处投递 

如果可以飞檐走壁找到你

爱的委屈 不必澄清

只要你将我抱紧

如果云知道 想你的夜慢慢熬

每个思念过一秒 每次呼喊过一秒

只觉得生命不停燃烧 

如果云知道 逃不开纠缠的牢

每当心痛过一秒 没回哭醒过一秒

只剩下心在乞讨

你不知道...

我想.....是时候了

突然之间 想回家的念头涌了上来

是累了吗? 是倦了吗?

还是 想家了吗?

想家了 想休息了 

想给自己一个重新爬起来的机会

承认有那么几次 很想鼓起勇气

狠狠的抛下一切

回到属于我的世界

从此远离你 远离这个完全不属于我的天空

不是要对你撂狠话

只是知道自己在你心中占据的位置的轻重

只有这样 才能完成你自私的愿望....

不敢奢望你会想起我

因为我 什么也不是了

事业,重新开始;生活,重新开始....

什么事情都可以重新开始

我甚至可以不畏惧任何的阻碍

可最讽刺的是

我和你的故事 不能再重来了

我....祝你幸福.

芸,我爱你

Smile

I try....

I try to smile whenever I think of you. 

I cried silently

I hide my tears 

I fake my smiles

'Cause I wanna let you see a happy me, Happy Mossie. :')

All I want is you to be happy. 

Promise me, will you?

miss you, babygirl.

笑.痛

我努力模仿你轻松语气

我努力向你学习放下一切

我强迫自己笑得开怀

可是笑得越大声

心就伤得更痛

你是否也和我一样?

亲爱的 你是否也和我一样

每个晚上入眠后都作同样的梦

都梦见同一个人

每梦一次 心就痛一次

睡醒了还得拼命的回想梦中的情景

因为.....

不想错过每一个细节

不想错过每一个有你的画面

这五个月来

我几乎每一个晚上都梦见你

甚至在这三个月里更是每一个晚上都梦见你

我多么希望我可以就这样在梦中停留

即使醒不来 我也愿意为了可以和你在梦中相处而停留

你是否也有过这样的经验?

是否也曾经因为一些梦而心痛到惊醒

笑着醒 哭着醒

甚至挣扎着是否该让自己苏醒还是继续逗留在不真实的梦里

分开以后 你还有发恶梦吗?

你还会睡不好吗?

是否让我抱着你入睡才能睡得安稳?

你....还会想念我的体温吗?

你....还会想念那一整晚都抱着你睡的手臂吗?

亲爱的 想你成了我临睡前的习惯

我.好.想.你.

对不起

对不起 

我又梦见你了

(其实我没有一天不梦见你...)

但是 我并不讨厌你出现在我的梦境里

因为现实生活中我无法与你亲近

只有在我短暂的梦境里

我才可以和你靠得那么近

看见你那甜美的笑容

我连做梦都笑了

I miss you, I miss us...

Until you

I did’t know that my name was so ugly

Until you type it out in our conversations.

你不知道

你真的不知道我的心到底有多痛

仿佛我说的每一句话都可以让你很生气

为何你可以如此容易的放下一切

为何你可以如此轻松的忘记我

你让我很讨厌我自己你知道吗?

即使问题不在于第三者

即使问题只是外来的因素

....................

我就那么不值得吗?

我不知道该怎么形容我受伤的心

你所说的话往往刺痛我的心
除了痛 还是痛
你总是间接的告诉我所做的一切都是多余的
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Now I really wish I have an excuse to be the way I am which clearly is being stupid.

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谁还记得是谁先说 永远的爱我
以前的一句话 是我们以后的伤口 
过了太久 没人记得当初那些温柔 
我和你手牵手 
说要一起走到最后...

爱不爱我没关系 一点小伤而已 
你可以很放心 
我不会为了留你 假装可怜兮兮

心痛比快乐更真实 爱为何这样的讽刺 
我忘了这是第几次 一见你就无法坚持

I love you inside...

You make me laugh.
You give me joy.
You're an amazing listener.
Your love gives me pleasure.
You make everything brighter.
You make my heart pump fast.

But when that love ends,
You make my life miserable.
You make my friends turn against me.
You make my heart turn against itself.
You make me beg like a little poodle.
You make me so angry, so resentful.
You make me sick.
You make me feel childish and lonely.
You make my heart pump fast, with anger.

I was guilty of starting this stupid fight, for this stupid reason! If I had only known...
But I apologized, because I know I was stupid, but you just don't seem to care about it.
Are you too hurt, or is there something deeper inside you that doesn't want contact with me?

You disappoint me so often, and you make me sick.
But somehow I always want to reconcile, because after all I probably truly need you.
And what hurts most, is the fact that even though our relationship is (or was) mutual, you don't seem to miss me at all.

I know I should be grateful for only having this kind of trouble on my mind,
but still it's no excuse.
I sometimes just wish life was easier to handle. More simple.

不敢...

你知道吗?

我已经不敢再相信爱情了

我不知道还有什么可以相信了

因为每次到了最后的最后

所努力付出的一切都
等于零....

再怎么痛

我都不敢再告诉你

我找不回原来的自己

再怎么伤心

我也只能在没有人的夜里

偷偷的的哭泣

我还是那么爱你....

How to love a woman - Bob Marley

What else matters when the one you love makes you smile? :)

Bob Marley

“Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.”

- Bob Marley

Come back

Baby I still want you in my life

I need you in my life

Please don't ask me why

I just need you to be here with me

You're the air that I breathe

You're everything in my life

You're everything I have

I will be good, I promise

Come back

Just come back to me

Don't me leave alone

Don't leave me here without you

Do it again for us

For our love

Don't go...Please

Don't go...........................

I love you.

come back. come back. come back. come back. come back. come back. come back. come back.

come back to me, baby!

I need you!!

I cried alone in the night

I cried alone in my bed

I cried alone in my dreams

I cried alone at my work place

I cried all the time when I think about you..

Baby, give us the second chance to prove that everything's right.

I wanna be there for you.
I wanna fight for us.

I never told you

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now, 
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me

Not strong enough

I'm not strong enough to be without you.

But you just did........

说不出的痛.

The pain in me

Do you know that I let myself treat myself like crap?

I still missing you everyday and night.

I can't rest my mind while I was sleeping, I kept dreaming of you, non-stop.

Everytime you posted something on path, the pictures will appear in my dreams.

(P/S: I dreamt of the "MIA" hotdog which I did for you on our movie date)

I wanna sleep longer cause that's the only way to stay beside you, or even get closer to you..

But those dreams were crap.

It was torturing....

I sleep in pain every night, I thought it would be better when i wake up the next day.

But it didn't work, I still wake up with the pain in me, EVERY-FUCKING-DAY!!

It's like my daily routine, I'm sick of it....

I hate being so vulnerable, I hate it when I lose you AGAIN.

I hate myself for loving you, I hate myself for still missing you like crazy!

I hate myself for not being the one for you!!!

And sometimes, I hate you for just letting go like that.....

Sometimes I wonder how do you do? Are you doing good over there? Do I ever cross your mind? 

Are you talking to someone new? Are you..........

YEAH, I KNOW! IT'S NOT MY FUCKING BUSINESS ANYMORE!! I KNOW!!!!

I just can't help it.

I never knew that our relationship would be so fragile.. 

The thought of "You & Me, Against The World" breaks right after you left me behind.

I wonder how did you make it like everything were so fine?

Do you know how hard I tried not to let myself for crying over you? Do you know how hard is it?? 

It feels like the tears were pulling me down to the floor and it tears my heart when it dropped.....

Do you feel the pain in me? Do you know how pain is it?? Do you know how hard I tried to pull it back?

Do you know???? 

You lock yourself inside your own world, you don't allow anyone to enter the secret world of yours;

I tried, but still..... You asked me to stay out from there.

I can't even reach you when you were down...

For that moment I hate you for being so introverted. WHY??? :(

Since I can't reach you, I'll just be "you". You taught me to not show our emotions, we should keep it to ourselves and deal with it. We shouldn't expose to anyone as we couldn't be so selfish. Yeah, I'm learning all of these now. Trying not to act on it, trying to hide it, trying to be happy, think of other's feelings instead of mine, trying not to contact you even though I miss you like crazy, trying to focus on my work while I get distracted with you on my mind, and yet I have to force myself to focus don't know how-many-million times a day, or may be billion..............I just can't stop thinking of you!!

I want a better me, I wanna be the one for you.

Halloween Night

It was Halloween Night.

The JinLove said wanna go Fry and celebrate as Miii wanna see her cute butch who works as bartender at there. -.-

And, Terrence is back!!!

So, all of us went for Tarot reading, as usual, hahaha....

We ordered 2 bottles of Moscato and started to chill.

Miii felt weird to sit in between of me and her, and she asked if she needs to change with me?

I just said no need cause I don't wanna make her feel like I'm kinda obsess over her.

And this could probably be the best seating arrangement for her to have her "space" even though we already break up.

May be all of our friends already get used to it that we are like "conjoined twins" which will never get separated.

  Hmm.... I miss that! :(

Friends get shocked when they saw our relationship's status.  :'(

That's the biggest fear of mine. I checked Facebook everyday ever since we break up just to make sure that you didn't change the status. I don't why I'm so paranoid about it? 

May be I just can't bear to lose you....

Love you from a distance is all I can do.

But to act like a friend in front of  everyone really kills me silently.

Every time I saw you or pictures of you, my heart beats faster and faster and faster like I just did 100 times of pumping.

I'm not sure whether it's heartache or what... I don't know what it is anymore. 

The way you distant yourself from me breaks my heart.

I can hear it's crying inside me, very loud...

You have you own reasons to make up your mind, and I know you do feel the pain like I do.

For the time being, I will still be there for you.

I can't promise you that I could solve your problem, but I won't let you face it alone. You can call me and I will make you laugh like you just popped thousand happy pills; you don't need to cry in front of me, but I will lend you my shoulder and give you the warmest hug. 

I would do anything just to see you smile, anything. Because, you have the most beautiful smile in the world. :)

Note to myself: Love myself more before I know how to love others. :)

Keep it up, Mos!
The truest test of love is if you're willing to keep fighting for it.







P/S: Love you always, love you still, always have, always will. 
I have to make myself happy, then only I will have the strength to make you more happier.

The stupidity is killing me!

I had enough of this kinda emotions shit.

I tried fucking hard to hide it but yet I always make people feel that I an emo freak!

Emo freak?? Excuse me! 

If I am really an emo freak, I would have posted every fucking shit on my facabook,

I would have tweeted it every minute to show that how freaking emo I can be, seriously!

What's the point for keeping it to myself? !

This is not me!!

 If express all my feelings out only shows that I'm seeking for attention, or trying to be emotional in front of everyone or to you may be...  I'M SORRY! I'M NOT!!!!

To you, this is me, I will never change!! Because you think that all of these were small acts and dramas....

It hurts man, it really hurts when you said all these to me...

If all of these were dramas and emo shit, why are you posting your thoughts on twitter or path?

But when it happens to me, you assumed that I'm just seeking for attentions!

Assumptions kill!!!

I've tried very hard to be the person that everyone wants me to be.

And yeah, everyone has emotions, but it doesn't mean that we have to act on it....

TRUE!!! But don't you think that you're complicating your life?

You have to hide it when you're upset, you have to smile/ laugh out loud when you feel like crying, 

you have to keep it to yourself when you really feel like telling others about your feelings? 

OMG, that sucks, man!!! 

I know we have different ways to handle our emotions or whatsoever shit that happens on us,

but it doesn't mean that we have to follow everyone's ways, right??! 

It's kinda upset when I SIMPLY thought that I'm just sharing my stories with others,

or someone I trust, and it turns out to be:

" Yeah, you feel better when you say it out because you're selfish!! And you just think of yourself instead of other's feelings!!" 

OUCH!!!!! 

Ever since that incident, I told myself that I AM NOT ALLOWED TO TELL YOU HOW I FEEL.

Is it the way you want me to be??

Seriously,

Isn't it how we have been? 

We tell each other about our feelings, our point of views...

We shared our stories, we trust each other while we doing our things....

We used to talk like best friends, argue like husband and wife, love like a couple, fight like sister and brother, gossip like colleagues, share like family.... 

WHAT HAPPENED??? 

I know I worth something, I know where my value is.

I know where I should stand and of cause I know the best of me!

Do you ever think that when someone is willing to do all these for you,

just because they love you? 

It's not like I don't love myself, it's just that I love you more than I love myself!!! 

You had fought a long time by yourself, but now you refused to let me fight for you 'cause you feel tired to keep fighting for this relationship. 

You've given me chances, but you said that I kept repeating the same mistakes which you don't even wanna tell me what's that? 

And to you, it's the worst part that I don't know what did I do....

*pulls hair*

You know I would change no matter what it takes, you know I'm fighting for us now.

But..... 

You just don't care anymore whenever you see I'm in pain or upset...........

you just passed by and don't give a shit anymore.....

you don't even wanna look at me.

I hate it when you did this to me, I really hate it!!!!!!!!!

I wonder why I still can stick around you and tried to make you happy even though I know you won't look back,

I just fucking don't know why??????! 

It makes me feel like shit, but still..... I just can't leave!!!

If the tiredness could cause people to stop trying again and again, please.... Give the me tiredness, NOW!!

I've told myself a billion times that I'm fucking sick of it, I wish I could stop!!

But I just don't know how??!! Stupid right? Yeah~ 

I feel like I'm hurting you whenever I wanna shower you with my love...

It hurts me too. Really. 

I'm sorry that my love couldn't make you feel like home now, but I don't regret 'cause you made me felt once before. Thanks babygirl.

I love you more than words can say. Period.

给你的爱.

没有人喜欢哭泣
小时候不懂得怎么表达 只会哭
长大了难过却没有人晓得 只有哭
心被伤了又不知道该怎么办 只能偷偷的哭
失恋了又得坚强的告诉对方我过得很好 只让自己在深夜里静静的哭
看书会哭 看戏会哭 听歌会哭 发呆会哭…
就连发梦都会哭
不要说我是个只会哭的人
我就是那么坦荡荡
就因为会无意间会被感动到
所以 哭了

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我会试着让自己不再为了那么琐碎的事情而掉眼泪
不管看戏、听歌、看书…我可以强迫自己做个没心没肺的人
不哭 不闹 不掉眼泪
可是我再也找不回我的笑容了
那个吸引你的笑容 回不来了

谢谢你陪我的这些美好日子
这一路走来
我们吵过 恋过 哭过 笑过 我们为了可以跟彼此讲电话而捱夜过
我们也很爱过…

也许就好像歌唱的那样
放手 也是一种爱.........

我知道 - By2

从来没想过不能再和你牵手

委屈时候没有你陪着我心痛

一切都是我太过骄纵以为你会懂

一直忘了说我有多感动

我知道你还是爱着我

虽然分开的理由我们都已接受

你知道我会有多难过

所以即使到最后还微笑着要我加油

我知道你还放不下我

才会在离开时闭着眼没有回头

我们都知道彼此心中

其实这份爱没停过

曾经完整幸福的梦在脑海里头

我多希望你还在我左右

答应你我会好好过

不让这些眼泪白流

记得

还记得吗 那年的幸福

曾经 那么相信 未知的未来

你的 喜怒哀乐 习惯动作

头发味道 手心温度

我都记得 

记得 记得 我狠狠爱过

说不出的话。

亲爱的，我累了。
我不知道你是否在让我知难而退？
毕竟我等了快要四个月了。
我从来没有这么有耐心过；
自从遇见了你，
我的耐心和毅力强大了好几倍。
这是好事还是坏事？
好想告诉你：你破了我的记录
我不曾想过，更不曾预料过我会等一个人等那么久；
也许在你眼中这并不算什么，
但是对我来讲，它算！

我一直告诉自己：现在的你很忙，忙创业，忙家庭...
当初的分开也是因为你不清楚你自己要些什么，
所以你决定放弃一切，重新来过，重新让自己找回你想要什么。
可是亲爱的，你是否知道这段日子以来，
我真的撑得好辛苦？
我不敢告诉你，没有资格告诉你...
最可悲的是，你根本不会想要知道。

是不是你想放弃却害怕我承受不了？
所以你在慢慢的让我退出？

其实我们到底是什么？
朋友？却亲密得好像恋人一样；
情人？却没有那实际的身份和资格。
我几乎每天晚上都让自己沉溺在这个问题之中，
挣扎过，也懊恼过......

其实自己明明就很清楚的知道你对我的感觉已经大不如前，
可是我就是一面执著的想挽回。
我问我自己：这样做值得吗？
固执的告诉自己，还可以的，我还可以的。
因为是你让我相信了“爱”
你把那深琐的大门给开启，
你走进了我不愿意让别人走进的世界。

我只想说：我还没有放弃，为什么你要放弃呢?
难道我们的这段感情真的没有理由让你和我一起坚持走下去？！

你知道

你知道的


你知道  我在想你的


只是  我没有勇气  说给你听了。。。

我就是那么一个白羊

白羊座会在别人不开心的时候 让别人开心 会在别人孤单的时候 帮别人走出孤独 会在别人哭的时候 安慰别人不哭 但 我们忘了 忘了在某个时候 自己那么难过 我们忘了 忘了在某个时候 自己是一个人熬过最难过的时候 我们忘了 忘了在某个深夜 自己哭
的一塌糊涂 白羊座的我们在别人面前永远都不哭 。。。

其实白羊一点儿也不物质，只是很难找到可以为之奋斗的目标，所以只好以表面的物质为目标，找不到目标的白羊很空虚，只好用对物质的追求填充自己。可是如果找到可以坚持的，可以奉献一切，不计得失的奉献！被白羊爱着绝对是幸福的事，可是被白羊爱上又是很难的。

白羊很独立,可是这不代表他们不需要依靠,他们需要,很需要!他们需要一份精神上的支持,鼓励和安慰,需要有人关心,有人照顾,有人依赖,需要有人寒夜里问他冷不冷?需要有人在他孤独害怕的时候握紧他们的手,需要有人给他们极大的安全感,一直保护着他们,在任何情况下都能抱紧他们,对他们不离不弃。。。

白羊在爱情方面绝对是专情的，他们的外表看起来非常的文静，并且总有一种神秘的色彩，似乎让人永远看不透。其实，白羊的爱情很单纯，也很简单，也深藏着强烈的嫉妒之心，只是因为他们爱恨分明，爱情的态度非常明确，他们爱的深，所以害怕被伤害，因此不会轻易踏出第一步。

白羊座的人表面都是大大咧咧的，他们很坚强，不容易哭，但是哭起来却撕心裂肺。白羊座的人占有欲很强，可是他们不想表明，却可以用眼神杀死你。白羊座的人敢爱敢恨，敢拿敢放，多数白羊忘记一段爱情很容易。白羊座的人很讲义气，说话直来直去，有时候得罪了别人还不知道，他却可以为朋友付出一切。

白羊座是很容易被感动的。表面上，爱逞强，私底下，很多白羊是爱哭鬼，只是不愿意在人前掉泪而已。所以，当白羊被人爱护的时候会很感恩(不只是感动哦)，并把这些都默默记在心里，也期望能回报别人。这些感动白羊的事物是白羊能继续相信人性有光明温暖一面的动力。

白羊都是白痴？ 很多人这样评价白羊，我承认，羊在面对朋友甚至感情时确实很“白痴”，你首先要明白一点，当面对朋友或感情的时候，羊的智商永远之有5岁小孩子的程度。不是因为羊天生是白痴或者智商低下，而是他们不想去想，拒绝去想。他经常觉得，生活简单一点就好，糊涂一点就快乐。。。

如果被白羊座吼，被白羊座欺负，不是敌人，就是亲密。亲密敌人：因为你不会离开，不会改变，不会计较，才深得白羊之爱。白羊遇事会找一个人发脾气，这个人就是他的亲密敌人！

白羊基本上是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他们又总是很忧伤。白羊总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩，他们不会让别人发现。白羊座的人很怕被伤害怕被抛弃，也怕带给别人伤害和不快乐，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以白羊很神经质、精神脆弱、容易感伤。

白羊羊。。。坚强吧！没人理我们的了。。。

理想

我理想的爱情 


绝不是要找一双完全适合我的手


而是一双无论有多么的不适合


也愿意牵着我的手。

倒数

今天是我们分手的第十七天


还有20天 
我就得乖乖的回去designer room专心的画图
我回到朝九晚五工作时的时候
同时也是你开始行销的工作
呵呵。。。怎么我好像觉得我们。。。。。。








让我们为彼此加油吧！












想你

一周年纪念 快乐。

5月17日                                                                                                    天气   要晴不晴...





今天     我们的一周年纪念日






等了一年       很拼命的       很兴奋的        很紧张的
等这一天的到来




一年了    
转眼间 一年就那么快过了
我们都甜蜜了一年
也吵了一年
成了大家眼中的连体婴也一年了


这一年 我们彼此成了对方的支柱
时常给予对方鼓励和建设性的批评
这一年我们都给予对方很大的空间
去做对方想做的事情


这一年 辛苦了你陪着我一起熬
这一年 谢谢你的一切忍耐和毅力
这一年 谢谢你无时无刻的警惕
这一年 谢谢你在我生病的时候 无微不至的照顾我






一年了 今天就败在我们都预想不到的心情
去年的今天 和此刻的心情的落差 实在大啊~


















没别的 
只想轻轻的对你说


对不起 我爱你。

你知道吗？

你知道每次你生气我的时候
我有多伤心吗？


你知道当你不理会我的时候
我有多难受吗？


你知道每当你给我"one word reply"的时候
我有多辛苦吗？


你知道你不接我电话的时候
我有多想哭吗？


你知道你每次不想跟我说话的时候
我有多痛苦吗？


你知道当我惹你生气的时候
我有多痛恨我自己吗？


你知道当你不在我身边的时候
我有多么的想念你吗？


你知道每当你发脾气的时候
我多想紧紧的把你抱入怀里吗？


你知道你心情不好的时候
我多么希望可以逗你笑吗？






很多时候 我很想把自己注入你的体内
好让我可以感受你当时的感受
压制你的脾气
分享你的喜怒哀乐
分担你的忧愁
代替你的大脑 分泌出更多快乐的元素


如果可以 我愿意把自己和你
加起来 除于二
等于 刚刚好


你知道吗？
我就是那么容易的被你
影响我自己


虽然有时候觉得我们就是两个不同世界的人
但是缘分就偏偏的让我们撞在一起
不可否认有些时候还是会偷偷的觉得自己配不上你
碰上心情不好的你 就会告诉我 “对 我们就是两个不同世界的人 我不知道该怎么跟你沟通”
碰上心情超好的你 就会告诉我：

你就是这样 
好不好听的话 就在于你心情的好坏


但是你知道吗
不管好不好听 动不动听
只要是你说的话
我都听
因为这就是你 这就是我打从一开始最爱的你










亲爱的 是否有梦见我？
因为凌晨4.25的我 想你了～

爱我 你怕了吗？

关于“累”

“累了...”
这是人们常挂在嘴边的一句话
无论是在工作上， 生活上，甚至感情上 
我们都会把这句话摆在嘴边


根据临床实验 常把“很闷”挂在嘴边的人 很短命
如果把“很累”常挂在嘴边呢？


其实身边有朋友时常碰面的时候 都习惯说自己很累
原因有很多
因为前一个晚上喝酒喝得烂醉
因为前一个晚上加班加得不够睡
因为前一个晚上熬夜熬得不能睡
因为前一个晚上做爱做到三更半夜
因为前一个晚上赌球赌到不会睡
因为前一个晚上看戏看到不想睡
因为前一个晚上看书看到陶醉


也有些人 面对一些挫折的时候
会习惯性的说自己“很累”
但相反的 工作狂不会因为自己的工作而感到很累
精力旺盛的 不会说自己玩得很累
书呆子的 不会说自己看书看到很累
感情丰盛的 不会为自己所付出的一切觉得累








其实 有些时候
我知道自己是累的
但我就是倔强 
我就是爱压抑自己 不让自己觉得累
感情生活是这样 玩乐是这样
就只有工 作我才会告诉自己是有多么的累
哈哈哈 很明显 我确实不是工作狂
因为只要我把“累”说出口 
我就会自然而然的觉得很累
我知道我会被我的思想左右
所以我尽可能告诉自己不累 不累
再累我都不觉得累
........................................................你应该会笑我白目吧？！ 呵呵


我在想：
我到底是不是一个让人觉得很累的人物？
身边的朋友可以说我精力旺盛
父母亲可以担心我的睡眠不足
就连女朋友......
我都可以让她觉得那么累


我想 这种类似的累
已经不是从你口中第一次说出来了吧？！
很抱歉
真的很抱歉
原来我只是一个总让身边的人觉得累的人


当你了解这句话的时候
你会发现
这句话很伤人




因为......




当一个人说她很累的时候
也就是她放弃的时候......


























我不累 是因为我真的不想放弃。